Yes. I totally understand. Try to surrender to it. Let it take you for a ride. As for not knowing who you are, it’s just confusing to the mind. You are more than the mind. The earth is a playground for the soul. You need a body in the playground. You are part of the divine. Your mind and body are mere matter. This is hard for the so called ego to accept. But it’s also liberating deep down. When you know this to be true you don’t have to fear for anything. We are all connected. But you can choose who and what to connect to. Connect to love, acceptance, now. It’s normal to cry and have these thoughts. It’s a dark awakening. You are not alone. Nothing is wrong. This only happens once. It will fade away and you won’t have to experience it again. The sooner you accept it the sooner it will pass. This is a wake up call and big tight hug from the divine.